for anyone who still checks my blogdrive account... i so need help...so....

here's an update for all of you.

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im stressed. like really.. and i want to cry.
ok, now is the only time that everything's sinking, and i realize that...

I HAVE TO WORK ON MY EFFING THESIS.
ALONE.
and yeah.. there are so many things that i have to work on..
like... my-ojt-papers-and ojt evaluations.

i have to do good this year.
its my last year for petes sake.
LALIE YOU MUST CONCENTRATE GEDEMIT.
hahaha.

so many distractions..and few perspirations inspirations..

I'm a thesis loser, and i'm gonna list of the topics that i want to do a thesis on.
so anyone who has a good heart, brilliant ideas on what i actually should do, happens to pass by and read my LJ, you'd know what i'd like to do, and would have an idea on how to help me. hahaha.

JAPANESE CULTURE'S INFLUENCE TO PINOYS
--> must try to get a copy of maru's research paper last sophomore year
so what about their culture's influence??? here:
-> LITERATURE (Mangas ??)
-> FILM (hmm, sagashi-ateru?? haha ack lalie died)
-> MUSIC (uh....  crisley... kangbon, heeeelp?!?!?!?!!)
-> FASHION (-> Cosplay or GothLolita)
-> GAMES (parapara!?!? ahahaha)
(note: people from project eivah and people who i know like jap chuvabels, HELP ME!)

PHOTOGRAPHY
-> no idea. good thing ama's a photographer. hah.  XD

MUSIC
-> RADIO.... billie i so need your research chuchubels last year.

BLOGS
-> Blog research paper last year..

apparently, its funny how i turn to fuckFortez's Reseach Paper Book, and rely on it like my dying life depends on it. it actually really HELPS. muntik ko na toh ibenta, buti hinde.

what i need to do to according to Fortez's Research Paper Book

In outline form, the steps are:
1. choosing a subject/topic
2. limiting the topic
3. preparing a preliminary bibliography
4. reading and note-taking, interviewing, surveying
5. organizing the material
6. analyzing the data
7-9 are not applicable. yet.

of course, thesis is different as i need to research theories that i might apply to my topic, but since i dont have a decent topic yet... that's what i think i should do..
hmmm.. i wonder if i could make a thesis about making a thesis. hah. that would be intresting.. XD but really, I'm leaning more on doing that jap culture ekchubels, so people, pls help me!!!!
I'm dying. hahahahaha. haaaaaaay....

anyone who is willing to help me on my thesis in ANY way...
you are so welcome to do so.
parang awa niyo na kung makaka-contribute kayo ng tulong..
DO SO!!!

msg me here, or in my YM account: steena_malfoy
but if you just want to make chikkas... ay, NEVERMIND, pls.. i dont have time for that

can someone be LSS to 3 songs all at the same time?
well... i think so..

I'm currently loving these songs:

Stellar by incubus
Lovestoned by Justin Timberlake
Tentai kansoku by bump of chicken
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when bubunch said: Gusto mo ba ako mamatay ha?
Jan asked where he got that, bubunch didn't reply..
but i knew where he got that from.

it's sad when you want to help and yet you dont really know what you'd do to help..
it's frustrating knowing someone has to go through something like that..
i may not fully undertand why or how it happened, and why she's still sick...
but i have faith that she'll be strong enough, and she's gonna get through this phase.
i might not be all showy that i care, but i do.
not only do i worry because of her, but because there are a lot of people who are being affected with what's happening to her... she may or may not be aware of this fact but, her family loves her so much.
she needs to rearrange her mind set, and be strong.

never should she say :GUSTO MO BA AKONG MAMATAY?
because nobody would want that happen, especially her family.

all care, and attention is being given to her, as well as patience as long as the river amazon, and understading as huge as pachem-ayako's ego... and yet, she still feels as if she's being abandoned, she should know that her family are human beings too... they have limits, and sometimes, just like her, they want to give up. i wish that she keeps in her mind that her family have accepeted everything that has happened to her, and that she should be grateful.

every night, i pray that she may be well, and that God gave her a lot of strength.
her family needs her.

not only am i ranting because of her being sick and all...
its because, more importantly...
someone dearest to me is being burdened with the responsibilty that the other SHE should be carrying.
i could be her wall, and her support system, but i can do only so much to help.

she's the bunso and yet, she's the one handling/worrying the welfare of her family.
she even plans to quit school all because she wants to help her family...
PFFFFT..... i really wish she wouldnt but given the circumstances, i can't disagree..
it's her choice, but i hope that there would be another way..

hay.... someone said that my 2006 is a really lucky and happy one..
it may seem so on the outside, but really...............
it isnt.

it may not be entirely my problem, but i care. and i am family, so i consider it as mine too.

hay.. grabe nagugulat ako sa bilis ng mga pangyayari...

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..
natatakot akong mawala siya sa akin..


"...he's not going anywhere you know..." -dimple

sana nga...

current bgm: Bittersweet Symphony by Oasis (yeah yeah, revival lang toh and not the orig)
current song of my life: Lovestoned by justin timberlawa (esp da last 3 mins nun song)
current song for DAHt special someone: stellar by incubus

yesh yesh, bangag na naman ako as usual...



natawa ako sa text ni enerz kagabi..
"...is that love?! hahaha..."

nyeeeeeeek, nyek nyek nyek talaga.




potchanesskah, ilang araw na akong di makakain ng tama..
ewan ko ba, basta wala lang ako gana kumain..
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magkasama kami kahapon.. kelegness ako eh, shetness..
he introduced me to his barkada..
pocha, the whole time before we meet, i was sooooo freaking nervous..
yeah... i felt like there was a million butterflies flying inside my stomach.
haaaaay...
well.. it went really well.. his friends (i think) approves of me.
especially erika..his "daughter"...
natawa nga ko eh, parehas pa kami may anak anakan..
grabe, sobrang jive kami ni erika..
haaaay...


doink... BOLUNJI...
"...dahil di pa naman kita ganun kamahal, kakakilala ko lang sa iyo, malay ko ba kung sasaktan mo lang ako..."

kasi naman eh, bakit umamin ka agad.. tapos di ka naman ready.. wala naman ako sinasabi.. apfffft.... nasira tuloy ang aking diskarte... hahaha..
ok lang... masaya naman eh...


"...o sige, aminin ko na nga... uh... *whispers* im falling for the one i like... im falling for you... " -him


he... he.. he...
isa lang masasabi ko dyan...

LETS CELEBRATEE!!!!
INUMAN NAAAAA! hahahahaha! PARTYYYYYYYY!

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btw, belated happy anniv to me and ahia.. :D

ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!"

i just wish i wont mess this up..
i hope it falls into place at the right time..
i just wish i wont make the same stupid mistakes..

and hopefully... i got to finally pick the right one.

pfffffft...

after such a long long time... tsaka na lang ulit ako super kinilig ng ganito ulit.
hay..


takte..
nahulog ang puso ko kanina..
sana napulot niya..

hahaha.. drama..


quote of the day:
"kapag sa friends hug, pag iba na.... well.." -da evolution man. nice codename. hahaha.



ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!

Sophia Constantino Caranay will always and forever will be my best friend.
walang makakapalit sa pagsasamahan namin..
at kahit na maraming sumisingit sa tabi at nagfeefeeling...
alam kong kahit kailan ay hindi magbabago ang pagiging matalik magkaibigan namin.

hindi ako pasensyosong tao.. pero sa mga mahal ko sa buhay..
pilit kong hinahabaan ang pasensya ko, naghihintay, nagaabang kung kelan mapapansin, at ma aapreciate.

narealize ko lang, matagal ko ng nirereklamo na hindi ako hinahanap ng mga tao, parang di ata nila ako namimiss pero ewan, siguro dedma lang talaga sila sa pakuyt ko at pagtatampo, kaya ngayon, kahit ipagtabuyan nila ako, MANGUNGULIT ako araw araw, hanggang sa di na nila mapigilan ang sarili nila at pansinin na rin ako.

sop, sana alam mo na nandito lang ako poryu..
mahal ko kayo parehas ni beja..
at sana you know that i will always understand..

sabi mo sa akin nun..."alam mo, isa ka sa mga taong naiintindihan ako..."
sana ganun pa rin...

bahala na si batman... hahaha... hirap talaga pag di ka marunong sumabay sa agos ng pagbabago... meron na silang ibang mundo, at ikaw, akala mo, nasa mundo mo pa rin sila, oo nga, andun pa rin, ngunit di tulad ng dati, bahagya na lamang.... bahagya nga lang ba, o tuluyan nang wala?.....

hehehe, tama na drama, bunutan na ng ngipin!!!
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kakatapos lang ng 2nd surgery ko...
nakakainis, di ako makakain ng masarap na pagkain..
pero at least may ice cream naman ako.. hahaha..

nakakatamad pumasok sa school tinatamad na ako mag aral... hay, hindi na kasi  masya eh... hindi ko na naeenjoy ang pag aaral..
wala naman akong natutunan masyado na bago..
mas marami pa ang intriga, chisims, backstabbing, plastikan, at kung ano ano pang ka showbizaan ang mga nangyayari at nararanasan...
grabe mas malala pa ito sa highschool..
napapagod na ako....
hay...


minsan gusto ko ng mapraning...eh mali, praning na pala ako..
minsan... gusto ko ng.... ___________ fill in the blank.


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meron akong kilala, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit mahal pa rin niya yun gago, kahit na durugista yun, manloloko, at napakablalaaaah......

ganun ba talaga ang love?

sabi na nga ba eh...

love sucks.


sabi na nga ba eh...

love is blind.

nga pala...

sabi mark twain... "i dont let my school interfere with my education"
tama nga ba, dont ba yun or never? ah basta....
tama siya. at motto namin yan ngayon ni dimple. hahaha.

ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!

sad... ateneo lost...

game 3 was today.

it was heartbreaking seeing jc intal, macky escalona, and chris tiu cry..
natawa ako nun naiyak si kramer. EVIL.. haha..

anyway... naiyak talaga ako nun natalo yun ateneo... so so sad..
hahaha.. masyado akong apektado.. epal..
wala lang, even if its not my school... i love the team so much..
besides, di ko naman kaiilangan na mag aral dun para magustuhan ang ateneo..

hahahaha

 

me still crushing on chris tiu....flavor of the month.. AHAHAHA..

 

ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!!

GO ATENEO!

yeaaaaaaaaaaah!
mum was cheering wildly for UST during the last minutes of the UAAP game a while ago. hah. it was the last quarter and UST was leading by a point, apparently, there was still a second left, and my heart was really breaking.

i hate kramer, but i love how UST did not put up their defence and let kramer get the ball and shoot. ahahahahahahaha! YEAAAAH!

minsan kahit nakakainis si kramer, na papakinabangan rin!
wwwwwwheeeeeeeeeeeee! one second na lang! na shoot pa!
yeah!


it was a really really close fight.
great game.
UST gave ateneo a hard time, but still...ateneo won!
wheeeee!


grabe ang galing rin ng UST ha.
pero syempre.. ATENEO PA RIN! waha!

me so happy!

intal >>> 21 points
ang galing talaga.

grabe, nakakatawa si kramer...
pag shoot nya nun ball, nastuck yun ball sa gitna nun ring and board.
wahahahaha.

btw... i crush chris tiu.
nyaaar. ok so matagal ko na rin siya crush, pero mas love ko kasi si larry fonacier nun, so di ko masyado pinapansin ang ka-kyutan ni chris tiu.
wahahaha..


wala lang, ang cute cute cute cute cute cute nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
random: he was the first to score during the game, tapos 3points pa agad.....

heehee. kiligness.
wah...!!!! i wanna watch a game live!!
game 2 on thursday.. hay.



nga pala, andun kanina sa game, nanonood, si joseph yuck yeo.
andun siya akaupo sa may UST, nakablack. bleeeh.
hahahahaha.
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ok, sige na, more raves on chris tiu maya maya..
im looking for pichurs and stuffs about him. waheehee.

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.....happy is a yuppie word, nothing sound, nothing is sound....
-switchfoot


ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!!!!

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

XXX

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ/blogdrive?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?



will you please answer this thing and make me happy.
comment.





ABANGAN ANG SUSUNOD NA KABANATA SA BUHAY NI TWITCH2x!!!